They say that negative brings negative and positive brings positive and, I have to say, after looking back on recent events, that really does ring true.
I’ve always been the type of gal to really worry about everyone else and their feelings that I sometimes tended to forget about my own. If they were upset, I hated that and wanted them to be happy. If people were negative, I’d hear them out and, to be frank, some of my dearest friends could be negative nellies. They see the glass half empty and, when I would tell them that they should look for the positive, I would often hear, “Aly – I’m just being realistic.” However there’s only so much negativity you can be faced with before you think “Eff this – I’m dragging my stilettos OUT of this mess and enough is enough.” Some people call it rock bottom – I call it a wake-up call. What really put a stiletto in the arse – this motivating post by my gal Mel.
My situation is workable – that’s for sure – but it’s going to take some hard work and determination to pull myself out of the rut I put myself. Yes – you read that right – I put myself in this rut by either a) not speaking up, b) not managing my situation correctly, c) letting it go on for far too long or d) all of the above. I’ve been faced with some challenges and decisions as of late that will chart my future going forward but the question remains – do I want to say in current situation or do I want to take a leap of faith, close some doors and move forward. I’m leaning towards slamming doors shut and moving forward. Will that hurt some people’s feelings – perhaps. Can I focus on that – not in the least. I can minimize the fallout but I can’t do everything for everyone and take on their negativity without eventually sending myself spiraling down deep.
I’ve talked with a friend of mine who basically set my head straight with “You need to take care of YOU” and she was right. There’s so many issues I need to work through on the home front, on the 9to9 front, on the personal front that if I don’t take the time and finally heal these emotional fractures, I’m basically setting myself up for failure. Enough is enough. How I let things get so out of wack, I don’t know but I can’t fix the past – only the present and that’s what I need to handle.
I also need to say that I have been hesitant to blog here on the day to day because someone’s (no one in particular – just being general) feelings could get hurt at a perceived slight or whatever, others could get angry but, quite frankly, this is my spot on the interwebs and I’m in dire need of a creative writing space that is not focused on cooking, or fashion, or my latest passion project. All In Stilettos (well -formerly Just Because…) started it all for me way back when and saved my sanity on more than one occasion.
So – let me dust off a few things and start writing again.
How do you see the glass – Half Full or Half Empty? Why?